Thursday, July 21, 2016

Bittersweet Doesn't Even Begin To Describe It...

As we pulled out of the county limits that quickly became home in Fall 2012, thick drops soaked the windshield falling from a storm-cloudless sky. It was as if God was perfectly articulating exactly how I felt.

 This town. This sweet town, that except for a long legacy in the South's most cherished tradition, would normally be a no-name Alabama town. Tuscaloosa. It holds the hearts of thousands upon thousands of once 18 year olds who pulled in one blazing August day and rolled out four (if not seven) years later completely changed, grown, and off to conquer their piece of the world.

I'm not really sure how to sum into simple words the way the Lord has moved, blessed, and completely destroyed yet redefined that naive little 18 year old who rolled into Tuscaloosa in that jean-blue 2003 Nissan Xterra.  But as much as these words can't and won't do these past four years justice, I shall try.

Tuscaloosa. Ttown. The Happiest Place on Earth. It's not home because I simply lived there. It is now home because this was the town where I not only found out who I was and wanted to be but realized the immeasurable depth, grace and power of the Lord. I succeeded in ways I never imagined I could, yet I just as equally failed and fell short on more than a handful of occasions. In this town, I realized how much more I could do if I let the Lord lead me and guide me and shape me. I discovered talents I didn't know I possessed. As I learned who I wanted to be and who I AM as a child of God, my dreams and desires shifted and expanded. They became tangible. They became real.

This dixieland college town blessed me with friendships that grew and shaped me. Not always was it comfortable or easy, painless or positive, but, without a doubt, it was always, always a blessing. Every single soul I called friend during these past four years is easily the single piece of this college puzzle I will cherish most. Wether a friend for a season or a friend for life, you've blessed me, stretched me, comforted me, brought joy and loved on me during a time where the ground was ever shifting. I thank you.

But today, as I packed up my final house in this favorite town of mine, I was overcome with a grateful joy. These have easily been the best four years of my life. Every good, awful, hysterical, psychotic, silly moment spent here has been the best of my life. Someone asked me if there was anything I could change, anything I would do different. Without hesitation, I responded with a definite 'NO'. No, because every moment, good or horrendous, has shaped me into the women who packed up her final room in zip code 35401. And to be honest, I'm quite fond of the woman who is writing this. Was I always? Absolutely not. Were there moments that stung like no other or choices of revenge I wish I could undo? Absolutely. But each one, each lesson learned, shaped me and taught me how strong I was, how powerful my God was, and how much more I should demand out of life.

To those of you who will head to Tuscaloosa in the Fall, soak up every moment because one second you are standing in Bryant-Denny, shaker in hand, singing Sweet Home Alabama for the very first time, and, by the time you finish the final verse, you are crossing a stage in cap and gown shaking the President of the University's hand. Cherish this town. Cherish it's traditions. Cherish the people it will bring you. Because you my friends, you are now the lucky ones.



#WifeMe
#RollTide


Thursday, April 28, 2016

Dear Delta Gamma,

In Fall 2012, I pledged to you that I wanted to join your sisterhood and become a part of a community that has built up and united women for generations. Tonight, I reaffirmed my commitment and became and alumni.

Over the past four years, you blessed me with memories. Oh so many memories. You gave me women who would not only encourage me to be who I am, but challenge me to strive for more, for better. They have held me up when I didn't think I could stand. They have celebrated with me when I got a spot in a fashion show or an internship I completely didn't deserve. They have laughed with me when I star-fished the ground, and walked beside me as I learned how to dodge the punches. You blessed me with women who I'll stand next to on the day they pledge to love the man of their dreams forever, on the day I pledge to love a man forever. Women who will stand up for you, who will teach you how to stand up for yourself.

This sisterhood is more than just two greek letters. It is a support system, a family. Thank you for teaching me we don't all have to agree to be able to create positive changes. I've learned that everything in this world is out to get you. If you're still standing, there is some force, situation, scenario that is trying to knock you down and get the best of you. You taught me that standing alongside 400 women lessens the devastating winds of destruction.

I know tonight was not goodbye because my journey has just begun in your sisterhood. However, it is goodbye to this phase. To the phase where I found myself. Where I grew into a woman I am proud of. Where I found my voice, my strength. Thank you for the space to grow and the encouragement to get here.

I have no idea what his next chapter looks like. I'm not even sure where to begin my alumni journey. But, I do know that the foundation that you've given me the space and security to build is strong enough to launch off of.

I am proud to be a Delta Gamma. For Strength. For Hope. For Life.


#WifeMe
#AnchoredForLife